Thank (the fear of) cancer for the launch of this blog. As I am writing this, I am not sure that I have cancer, but in my mind, there is a strong possibility.

When you ponder the possibility of a life threatening disease, a number of very emotional scenarios play out in your head.

Something that becomes painfully obvious is that there is no need to put things off – just do.

My health predicament is caused by a bad habit I picked up when I was 16 years old (I am now 43).

In my infinite teen wisdom, I took up dipping (or “snus”, as it is called in Sweden). I was addicted to nicotine through snus until 548 days ago when I decided to quit cold turkey.

If you are dipping and you want to quit, I wrote a post that contain tips, tricks and advice that I think will really help you out.

A month ago, we were having dinner with some friends. After the dinner I experienced a sore throat and I a bump when swallowing. It feels like having food stuck in my throat.

When describing the symptoms to my doctor, she asked if I smoked.
Me – “No I have never been a smoker, but I dipped for a large part of my life”.

She refers me to the ENT (Ear, nose & throat) department for an upper endoscopy, and I get really scared.

Endoscopy is when they guide a camera down your throat to visually be able to see what is going on, as well as taking a sample if they want to.

The endoscopy is in a few weeks, and I am both scared of the procedure itself and what they might find.

Regardless of outcome, for the rest of my time, I will just do – no more putting things off until the “right time”.